Eric and I tried to make it work, it didn’t. It’s no secret that Eric has been a HUGE part of my life and Marlowe’s life for the past year. With the help, yes, but more importantly, with the time spent and conversations we had on the day to day: it has been a difficult change. It’s really important for both of us to continue as friends, &we are doing what we can to stay in each other’s lives.
With Marlowe’s fathers visit and then with the trip to Massachusetts planned, there has been about two weeks of distractions keeping me (and Marlowe) busy from the regular day to day. But now, here we are again, in South Florida, and the major changes are apparent. I knew going to Massachusetts, that I would come back and nothing would be the same, and boy, was I right.
The past few days have been hard. Between the 8 hours of traveling solo with a sick baby (it really takes a toll on this 5’2″ body). &The rainy dark weather back at home. &Because Marlowe is without a doubt teething again– my breasts are feeling her toothy rage. Also, there is a fever (I took for teething) and a rash that quickly appeared (that I took for a diaper rash and detergent change)— that turned out to actually be a case of Roseola. Mild, for sure, but still difficult when you don’t have food in your home (from cleaning it out pre-vacation) and your gas has been turned off from… well, forgetfulness (lack of payment). I’ve had no choice but to co-sleep (get no sleep at all) with this very clingy baby, becuase Marlowe refuses to sleep any other way.
This isn’t meant to be a rant, or a long post of complaints, it’s just real life. Today seems much brighter— not only outside, but inside too. Marlowe is slowly becoming her easy going &happy self, and I’m finding ease and comfort in her slow return to normal. A lot of things are changing around here. And no one knows for certain how life will turn out, but for now, we are stepping one foot in front of the other, moving forward, and staying positive, because even with the bad, life is undeniably good.
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This is my first visit to your beautiful blog and I have to say, I LOVE your photos! Love, love, love! I hope you join us for a future Wordful Wednesday! Everyone should get to see your pretty pictures:)
miss you..
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am inspired by what a great mama you are to your baby cakes <3
anyone who reads your blog will know that you two are back and forth, and will be "back on" in no time.
Oops… I meant happen in my original comment…obsessiveness aside I love all of the empowerment happening here! love to you and Marlowe and all of your fans!
You're allowed to complain or rant if you need to, mama. You always recognize the beauty in life even during hard moments. Those moments come and we deal with them the best we can. You're a strong woman and I wish only the best for you and Marlowe! And for Eric too!
a lovely post.
I am sorry to hear about you & Eric.
love you!
<3xojo
My Lilly had roseola a while back. No fun for mama or baby. Hope she is feeling better.
I love that you keep positive and see the light in life.
thinking of you….
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Firstly I admire your positive attitude and secondly I am so sorry to hear about what's been going on. You seem like such an awesome person and wonderful mom I am certain everything will fall into place. Take care.
you're one strong momma. even if this post was meant to be a rant of complaints, we would all still read it- I know I would and I know that I want nothing more than to give you a giant hug. <3
#TeamDrea&Marlowe #TeamItgetsbetterIpromise
#Teambeerhelps
#;)
I'm also new to your blog…However I read so many positive mommy blogs about there happy perfect everyday lives, you start to wonder how they have these dream lives…I'm glad that you are posting about the sad the bad the good and the happy in your blog. it makes you more real!
Life isn't always happiness..You have such a little blessing by your side, she will surely keep you company in the years to come even if you stay a single momma!
I hope it gets better for you soon!
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Oh man, sorry to hear that! I was totally Team Eric!! So are u back with your baby daddy now?
aw man, sorry to hear about Eric and Marlowe teething… these are times that make us stronger people and im so glad that you're staying positive because that is KEY!
hopefully Marlowe's dad really steps up and becomes a great partner!
xoxo
"This isn't meant to be a rant, or a long post of complaints, it's just real life." Thanks for sharing some of your real life today. You're still inspiring!
ohhhh I hear you…I just went on a single momma rant on my blog!
I'm sorry to hear about you and Eric but, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work. Either way, if you can remain friends, that's wonderful.
As far as Marlowe, hope she gets better. Some babies get both fevers and rashes when they are teething.
Lily has a fever due to teething today too. 🙁
I'm new to your blog.. found it from a guest post or something? Maybe? I don't know.. but I do know that you seem to be a pretty strong woman raising a beautiful baby girl and I find that pretty inspiring. I'm sure that you will make the best of the situation, but I hope that things start to look up soon!
Oh dear! I thought there was house-hunting about to happy with E and you! I don't know if feeling sorry is appropriate, but I understand. Deeply. Addison's father and I have an erratic story that has led me to be a completely single mama. It is hard and mostly, it is lonely. I have contemplated posting about the loneliness…but it isn't always sad. Keep up the positivity, there isn't much of a choice is there? Here is a favorite mantra: "It is very simple," she thought. "You get up, you go, you do, you see, you put one foot in front of the other and along the way you do your very best to enjoy it." -Alice in Wonderland: Lewis Carroll