Things are still upside down around here… but I’m doing what I can to keep this home as stable as possible for little M. I wish I could say more about what’s going on… but really, even I’m in the dark about everything. I haven’t seen or even really spoken to Alex in days… but it’s pretty clear that both Marlowe and I have been thrown off beat. I just keep reciting mantras to myself throughout the day, trying to keep my head and heart clear… because falling apart is not an option when I’ve got this little girl to raise. It’s also been a HUGE help to have my mom in town… she’s been very much needed for the moments I’m struggling to do it by myself. Who knows what’s in store for M and I, but for now, I am trying to take it one day at a time.
My mom insisted we drive out west to the polo ground for opening day. It was nice to spend today in fresh air and sunshine. Marlowe had a blast, I cleared my head a bit, my mom relived moments of 20 some years ago with a tiny me on the field, and Michelle was a grumpy (but pretty) mess of a hangover. I spent 100% of the time chasing down a baby that refused to be held. Marlowe met (and chased) a million and a half dogs (okay, maybe 15) and ran around waving at everyone. Marlowe was photographed a million times (ok, again, not a million) and will even have her picture printed in the newspaper! She’s such a hit, really, she’s the best thing ever, even when refusing to be held 😉
Tonight has been hard. Marlowe’s sleep has been thrown off once again. And I am just exhausted, physically, but mostly emotionally. I’m practicing my patience in all directions.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Fresh air is good for the soul.
almost a photo of M and I. She was a screamer and scratcher every time she was picked up. Like a nasty little adorable kitten.
skydiver // polo // air
babes, my mama and my baby.
polo // my mom went paparazzi on me.
paparazzi style mama life.
And…. she’s up again. Goodnight folks. It’s gonna be a longgg night.