**be warned: this post may be a bit rant-y, complain-y, babble-y, and contain a lot of (extra) typos.
This has been one hell of a long week. I cannot not even begin to describe how much I am truly looking forward to feeling better. You read about Wednesday night/early Thursday morning…. well… as awful as the whole thing is/was, I was lucky enough that it all worked out with my (and Alex’s) work scheduling. I don’t work Thursday during the day— I work Thursday nights… which means I was able to spend all of Thursday with a very sick Marlowe. Thursday night came around and as I was walking out the door, I noticed a missed call from my boss, and discovered the truck wouldn’t be going out that night. Boy, that was kind of a nice surprise. Marlowe slept all day and most of the night. She spent 80% of her time on me. As hard as it was to see her sick, it was also so nice to just lay there with her cozy little body on mine.
Friday, Alex had off work. He came over to watch Marlowe while I went to work. For the past month (plus?) Alex and I have had no more than five minutes of contact with each other at a time. I had decided a while ago that he would no longer be spending time in my home. He would pick up Marlowe at my doorway, and drop her off the same way. I cannot begin to explain how much I dreaded him being there on Friday… but then at work: the sickness hit me ( and I thought she wasn’t contagious. whoops). I rushed home a few minutes early to meet them for a doctors visit. Marlowe and I left diagnosed with the Flu (Type B– whatever that means) and the three of us left with a prescription to fight off the sickness. The rest of the day I joined Marlowe wavering in and out of fever land. We watched videos together, tried to eat as much as we could, and whined here and there. Alex and I took turns getting things done around the house and making sure Marlowe was comfortable. I wanted nothing to do with having to spend time with Alex, but once I started feeling miserable myself, I was grateful it all worked out how it did, because, needless to say: it was nice to have someone around to help.
I handle the day to day pretty well, but when I’m sick? Pfffft. I’m a mess– a big whiny, loopy, vulnerable, half brained baby of a mess. Marlowe started feeling somewhat better on Saturday. Me? I had a fever of 102 coming and going for different parts of the day. Trying to handle the flu, by yourself, with a baby who is suddenly feeling better (and going a bit stir-crazy and wanting attention) is god-damn hard. I laid on the couch, or on my bed, shivering under the covers, with a video to distract her, wishing I could magically morph into two separate people, complaining to no one, but myself.
Here I am on Sunday. I haven’t had a good nights sleep in days. I’m still sick. Coughing myself into a beautiful set of abs (I wish). I’m stir crazy, bored beyond belief, and slightly depressed that the best day this week was the day I dreaded the most– because hey, it’s the day: I not only had another adult around, but I also had more than two arms to help care for my sick child. On the upside: Today, I’ve been given a day of rest. Marlowe has been feeling a lot better, her fever has gone down and she has regained much of her energy. Today, my mother has picked Marlowe up to stay with her for a few hours (my mom flew into town yesterday), giving me time to actually recover. I’m praying to the sick gods that tomorrow will be a better day. It should be. It has to be. Because I cannot, for another day or moment, sit here, bored and alone, in my home. This update is about five pages longer than I wanted it to be. Just give me my healthy, happy life back.
Coming up in the new few days I have a sponsor spotlight and a (soup) recipe. And I still planning on doing a body care post… you know… one day.
And the winner for our Perry Mackin giveaway?
None other than one of our very own sponsors: Belle from Petite Biet. Congratulations Belle! The bag will be Brooklyn bound just as soon as I kick this flu 🙂
Thank you everyone that entered! Stay tuned, we have a few more giveaways lined up for April and May. And of course: don’t forget about our Ride For Kids giveaway, where you can win a ton of awesome organic shirts, among other things… and 100% of the proceeds goes to help children with brain cancer. It’s a win/win… even if you know, you don’t win.
edit: I should probably mention, cause I’m pretty sure it will be brought up or questioned: yes, we totally used disposable diapers all week. I know I said we were an “all cloth” house, but I guess that wasn’t completely true. I forgot to mention we use a disposable for sleep time…. and now: for sick time.