If I’m absent on this space… it’s never because I want to be. And it’s never because I’m out of photos and words. And it’s rarely because I’m too busy to be here (though sometimes it is). But usually, more times than not, it’s because my health is still lacking and things are unquestionably harder for me than they’ve ever been before. And every single action I take in my life requires so much more effort than ever before. And I only have so much energy to spend throughout my day in the down moments.

And sometimes I think that I should come on here and share what’s happening– because there are other people who are struggling just like me. But honestly, I’m tired of being a broken record. I’m tired of sharing  my occasional ups and subsequent downs. I just can’t. Not this often. Not right now.

So if I’m absent, it’s not because I don’t care about this space, because I do. And it’s not because I don’t want to document, because I definitely do and I wish I could do so without energy and just by transferring my thoughts somehow.  But honestly, I feel like maybe, more than anything, my lacking health is more of a reason than ever to document. But sometimes I cant. Whether physical or emotional, sometimes I cant.

And so I wanted to come here, with this little bit of energy that I’m harvesting tonight to say thank you–  because as much patience as I’ve had to have on myself in the last three years of illness, I’m very aware that others must practice patience with me too. And sometimes people don’t want to and relationships fade. But some people stay and those are the people who mean the most to me. So thank you. Thank you for staying. Thank you for being here. I’ll keep saying it over and over but I appreciate it.

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8 Comments

  1. Meghan Campbell Reply

    Not gonna lose this reader. Endless hugs from Canada. Wishing for your healing and peace on this journey. ❤️🌈

  2. s schreffler Reply

    sending you positive vibrations from the city of brotherly love

  3. Sorry to hear you are struggling. Wishing you the best. You have helped me so much with the c.diff info. Thank you. Will watch for your post. 👍🏻😊

  4. sending you so much love and hope for healing. been a reader for many years and definitely not going anywhere. <3

  5. Andrea you could literally post pictures of paint drying and I’d still be checking in… Sorry you’re feeling bluergh, I’ve got a teething, cold having 12 month old here (and here is in my mother-in-laws house; we’re here for a year til we buy our own place, couldn’t ask for better in-laws, but 1 month in and having a baby waking every 2 hours at night sucks balls!!) So I feel you, hope you find a therapist that works for you, and just keep on keeping on x

  6. Deanna Rowe Reply

    I’ll always be here for you, Andrea. As someone else with chronic pain and illness, I most definitely understand what you’re going thru.

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