WordPress did some sort of update this week and it’s really been messing with my work flow. It looks cleaner, great. But all the posts I was working on in draft are no longer reachable. And I’m not sure what to do about that. Other than maybe throwing a fit and giving up. Kidding. (Sort of.)
The good news is that none of this really affects you guys, as you cant see the backend of my blog system. Well, sort of. Because I guess if I cant create posts as efficiently, then it does affect you guys? If you can’t tell, I’m grumpy about a really mediocre problem. Well, I’m actually grumpy on a handful of things and it’s all sort of building up. And I’m trying not to let life eat at me, because that really doesn’t benefit anyone around me. You know?
We’re still not back in our house. It’s just about done. The bathroom just needs a few things tweaked. And there is still a hole in the ceiling from our (past?) roof issues. After that, it should be done.
But honestly, I don’t really want to go back to it. Crazy sounding, I’m sure. But we’re looking into other options. Like, downsizing. Like, tiny housing it. Like, bunking up in a tiny space for a few years until we can one day move to Central America (I know, again). But I don’t know, we’re looking into options. Alex has quite a few hesitations about the tiny house thing. Honestly, my only hesitation is that I feel like there would be too much EMF radiation living in a tiny box. But I don’t know, I have to do more research. I’m just so sensitive to all that stuff now. It’s really crazy. But maybe it’s a good thing to be sensitive to it? Because it keeps me away from it more? I don’t know. We’ll see what happens.
This season makes it a bit tough because Alex is basically gone around the clock. I think he has two days off in the next three weeks and might be going in for 14 hour days. This makes for more time-off later, I hope. But we do miss him now. Marlowe and I might end up in Mexico after all. Just for a few weeks. A getaway. If Alex isn’t going to be around anyway, then I cant really feel the guilt from picking up and leaving for a bit. Right? Sure.
The only thing stopping me is my body. The last colitis flare really F-ed me up. Like, really, really bad. I didn’t want to come here and write about it. I couldn’t even if I tried. But I could hardly speak or walk. It was scary. Really truly scary.
I’m doing better now by being adamant about the all fruit thing. And I’ve noticed a significant improvement in those things (memory seems to be on the up and up again. and I’m walking totally straight again. woot!). And I’ve had improvement in my gut as well. But the last colitis flare left me with some odd symptoms in my lady parts. Strange… but let me clarify.
So I was doing that detox, you guys remember that? I was experiencing major headache and flu (detox) symptoms taking the monolaurin. Which is good, because that means it was definitely killing things. Well, I feel like it might have killed some good things too and messed me up a bit. Because after taking it for a week or two I noticed I started feeling really depressed– which happens when my good bacteria dies off. Which is unfortunate, but I figured it was no big deal, I’ll stop and build up my gut again.
Except a colitis flare happened a few days later. Pretty sure it was gluten or another allergy trigger, but really not sure. Regardless, the strain from my colon seems to have moved my internal organs off. I’m not entirely sure, but things just feel off in there. And in this time, I got my first yeast infection in maybe… 10 or 15 years?! I dont even know. I think I’ve had one once. But this is not a thing I typically deal with. So I was really throw off and confused. But I’m pretty sure the yeast was due to the monolaurin. But of course, I cant say for certain, because it could have been the colitis flare too. Or the hormones from the stress. Or maybe we could even maybe blame Alex, but who knows.
All I know is that my lady parts have been off in a few ways. Which is definitely a newer thing for me. I used to get reoccurring BV about ten years ago (that one we can def blame Alex for). But that stopped happening when I became savvy about the whole thing and took steps to build up my system and make sure future ones wouldn’t be a problem. And maybe, just maybe Alex and my splitting up for a few years was a good thing? I mean, at least for my fem parts.
Anyway, are we getting too personal here? All I’m trying to say is that this stuff is something I’m trying to figure out. I used to get cysts and I had super fibrocystic breasts (OUCH) but that cleared up with my diet changes and clean eating (food is medicine, guys). But now, I’m just trying to get it all under control. And once I can, I’m out of here— like out of florida. Because I feel like once that is back in order, I can mostly control everything else. And then I can pack up a little suitcase and taking the kid to the beach… at least for a few weeks.
(Speaking of the beach, don’t wear a bathing suit for longer than you have to, thats a sure way to catch some yeasties.)
So back to the detox: I stopped. So now: whats the case with my reoccurring shingles? Well, doing this fruitarian diet (correctly) has really improved it overall. On the day to day, I’ve been feeling better.
Except, the last two days I could feel a shingles flare coming up. But what was the cause behind the sneaky shingles trying to make an appearance? I’m 100% certain it’s my hormones. I ovulate and the hormones flare an attack. On one hand this obviously sucks, because I’d like to be free of flares all together. And I’m not sure I can ever get to this point since so many of my symptoms flare due to natural hormones. But on the upside: I’m at least understanding my body even more. So even if I cant rid myself of my shingles completely, now I know that right before I ovulate I can (and need to) take lysine and my other supplements to make sure my shingles will stay dormant. To be honest, I wasn’t even taking my lysine this month. My fruit diet had me feeling so much better that I hoped I didn’t need to take it anymore. And maybe, I don’t need to take it… except when my hormones are doing their things.
So now, I plan to maybe skip the lysine (to give my body a break from it) for about two weeks. And then pick it up again midway between my periods— you know, between the full moons. (Had to throw some extra crunchiness in there). But for real, my periods are so in line and easy now, it’s nuts. The full moon comes, and so does my period. Body rhythm nature clockwork. I used to have the most dreadful, stay at home in bed and cry periods. But my diet really improved so much of that for me. I’m grateful for it.
Yes, I am the crazy scientist type.
But after destroying my body for most of my life, someones has got to take control of this thing. And no one is going to do it but me.
I posted this on Instagram: but I’ve been calculating what I eat everyday. I figure if I’m going to do this fruit thing, then I want to be sure I’m getting what I need. And it turns out I am. I’m pretty impressed. I need to up my greens for calcium intake, but otherwise, I’m good. And honestly, I’m probably getting the same amount of calcium as before. Because if you guys didn’t know this, grains are anti-nutrients and suck the calcium out of you. So now that I’m not eating grains (at least for now), I don’t have to worry about calcium depletion. The calcium goes directly where I need– or it should anyway. All I know is that I’m not worried about deficiencies of any sort.
(I hope to do a post more on that topic later.)
So yeah, we’ve been doing this nomad thing again (but not wanting to). I’m majorly working on my health. My lady parts are confusing me. I’m mostly keeping up with this fruitarian thing– I’m about 97%. because I’ve been eating potatoes and sweet potatoes on occasion. I want curry and dosas like crazy. But I’m good. Well, I’m good all things considered. The next few weeks seem like they’re going to be extra trying on me, but I just gotta roll with it.
I’m meeting with a holistic pelvic practitioner this week and I’m hoping she can help me address this out of wack lady part situation. Then all I have to worry about are my external stressors. And for now, I’m going to try to focus on the bigger ones and let the smaller things like WordPress sucking, roll on by. Ya know?
This post obviously has ten million topics in one. I never really know what to discuss when it comes to this health stuff– like what you guys might or might not be interested in. Diet? Hormones? Cysts? Vagina infections? Colitis? Shingles and viral stuff? I don’t know. I could talk about all that stuff for hours. And I will, if you let me/want me to. But I never know! So for now, I’ll just ramble through it all!
I hope you guys are well! I’m going to work on getting these draft posts functioning… you know, like my body. I just want everything to function optimally! <3<3 Cheers!